YingJingTu

because of him,i cant sleep well..so suffer...

Y i think so much???

为什么我还要等他？？为什么？？我可以不要等他吗？？我感觉很辛苦和痛苦，因为对一个完全不喜欢你的人是没有希望的。。

为什么我还要想他？？我不可以想别人先吗？？比如家人和亲戚。。为什么要想他？？

2day is my 1st day 2 take acc exam,walao,when i did the questions,I m super pek chek and dun hv enough time to do...After i took the exam,i m super down then my fren encourage me dun think abt it...important we all pass the exam then is ok...That time i felt is ok a bit,after tat i saw my eng lecturer,my mood suddenly super down...This is because my eng course marks is the lowest between my friends...so sad again..

Why i need 2 compare and care so much??My wish is  not all my subjects pass???Why i so sad??Because i get lower marks??

我今天不懂做什么，我都特别很臭脾气。。。刚才妈妈打来的时候，我就立刻很大声去骂她。。。其实我这样做会被雷劈死！！我这样对妈妈是非常不好。。对不起妈妈！！

我不应该对你发脾气，错的人是我。。不是你。。。为什么你那么无辜给我骂？？我真的很过分，根本没有想过妈妈的感受。。我真的很懒惰，assignments又没有好好的去做，一直偷懒和把所有的责任给组员做。。

2day i get my accounting result,i think i m nt satisfied because i scare my other subjects will get the low marks or fail..then i will vry depressed and i will try 2 commit suicide..many ppl think me i m worried too much.

i oso dun wan think too much but i scare my result will fail..the most i scare is econ and maths subjects...tis 2 if i can pass is d ok,i will vry satisfied wit my tis 2 result...tis is because i duno hw 2 ans during the examination,i scare when the result cum out,i will becum crazy and super sorrow at all.

finally my group presentation r finished!!i totally happy and i did nt well in my presentation.because i say lk a bullshit and i scream YO YO!!lk a silly rapper.come on tis is formal presentation,y i did lk tat??pengsan la..

i quite miss when we all ppl 2 join 2 do our assignment,the Mr Cheok always scolded by me.when we did our assignment,then they played dota..walau..they wan me angry??my patientience oso vry low,vry easy 2 angry and always scold ppl....

I love someone again..y i become lk tat?y i cant just focus on karate and dun think anything?i m vry stressful d.i dun wan 2 become my bro.

he just kasihan me sahaja.y i care so much?come on.dun b lk tat..

2day is my birthday.i dun hv feeling happy and sad,it lk a common days.should i care so much?

Ying See,happy birthday~

Today i wit my fren go mahkota parade.actually i m quite satisfied,but i saw my favourite clothes,i cant buy it..This is because the price is too xpensive..if i shopping wit ah jie then i will need her 2 belanja me.Now i dun hv already,i miss my family....I only buy a shirt in reject shop then i buy many drinks.

Nw i study the university in melaka..vry bored and i m always alone in the hostel.I knw i m a unactive person and duno hw 2 enjoy. i m quite hate myself,i wan 2 bck home.. if i free i think i can do my homework,but i m too lazy so i didnt do...I hate my behaviour....if i agree erica 2 go out wit her 2 do the chinese society things,nw i will vry busy...I hate my college life...I m a upside down person,other ppl are enjoying but i m nt...Why i could like tis??? Last time she studied in campus,she will happy and enjoy her study.when i go there 2 study,i m nt same as her situation..actually i dun lk 2 go out,but nw i really wan 2 go out,maybe the internet connection problems.the line there is too sucks...THIS IS I REALLY HATE!!!i like 2 online 2 watch movie,nw i cant couz the damn line is too slow.actually i can online but the line is sucks...i really dun satisfied it,my family we muz thanks and appreciate what we get... I only hv 2 friends that i think i can talk so much with them,i think it is vry little,but i m vry happy..I m still nt sure what they think,but i dun mind..Hopefully i can find the best friends..If i have only 1 i oso dun mind,i really miss my hometown and my friends in btg.They r better than mlc fren.i m so lonely,i knw y the girls go 2 other place she will 2 find the boyfren..nw i knw the feeling,if u only have a few fren,u will feel lonely and wan 2 find the guy 2 love..Nw i juz felt alone and i dun wan 2 find the guy because i dun lk.So on i wam focus my study,if my result is nt gud,i will so sad..Love maybe so powerful 4 the couple.sometimes is sad,happy,moody and hate.Maybe love make u dun hv free time 2 do ur personal things..Although i didnt have bf,but i saw my fren they r so unhappy or happy.. My family wan me 2 bck home,i insist dun wan because bck my hometown need so much $$$..vry sry my parents..I study college use a lot a lot $$$.Example the text book is thin then the price is RM40++.i lk 2 buy frm senior because i think it is vry wasteful.. The last words i wan 2 write MY COLLEGE LIFE IS DAMN BORING!!!!I HATE IT~~~